wHaT's bEsT

Some things I want, and others I don't want. Now, I don't know if the things I want are the things I need; yet, when I consider where the Lord has been leading me, I think there's some considerable options in my life. However, I usually don't assume that any position I am placed in is ever permanent.

The only thing I know for sure is that I serve and love a God who is in control and guides me like the wind guides a sail boat; however, there's no rutter or wheel to guide this boat. Though, whenever I try to make a paddle and move the ship, it will eventually break because I can't decide the route I should take. In many ways I vision myself like the ark of Noah, minus the animals and all that. Noah had to build a boat that had no rutter, one door, and one window. Perhaps even seeing ahead is not something I should do.

The point is this, I have to trust and obey the Lord.

There are, though, some things I am sure of.

1. No matter what job I take on, where I end up, or position I will find myself in, the Lord will be my only Master. There's only one Man I want to follow. Only one God I want to serve.

2. Writing is my career.

3. Graduate school is somewhere on the horizon.

4. Teaching overseas is very possible.

5. Starting my own business is possible.

Yet, there are things I must avoid.

1. I cannot become comfortable. Temptation for me lies in staying in one place for too long. Even though it's quite easy for me to find new thrills and fascinations in a single place, I must not become complacent and believe that this is where I will stay.

2. I cannot pretend that I will someday accomplish something only to think about it and feel satisfied. Many times I like to postulate where or what I may do in the future, but sometimes my resolve isn't enough. I don't need to be a dreamer.

3. Even though I say that the Lord is my only Master, I must not allow my love for literature and knowledge to rule me. It's easy for me to become prideful, and often, partially because we live in an "illiterate" society, I'll look down on people because of their lack of knowledge in the humanities and arts.

4. I cannot set my hopes on my plans. My only hope should be geared towards Heaven and eternal things, not earthly.

So, there's just some of the things I know I want and don't want. Though there's probably more, these are just the main ones. God knows what's best for me in the end anyways.