An UPdate

My life here has started to settle down. And, that's what has been bothering. I don't want to go back to being comfortable again. I saw what it did for me in the US and I don't want that here. The nice thing about last month was that I had to depend on God for the next step. Even now I'm still having to depend on him. The only problem is that I'm starting to remember that things are going to be OK. Not good.

Perhaps I'm just being too hard on myself. I know that in the past I've been noted for being an over achiever when it comes to doing things for the first time. Basically, my instincts from being the oldest child kick in and tell me, "You don't know what you're doing, so work your butt off and make everyone happy and pleased with you so you don't get in trouble." Sometimes it's a good thing, but other times it isn't.

My biggest problem here is being stubborn and prideful. Not trying to accept people's help and trying to do things on my own. It's not physically possible for me to live with that mind set. Not only is it a spiritual issue, but also being a foreigner doesn't allow me to operate under those beliefs as easily as I would like them to. I need other people to help me. I can't speak the language yet and I don't understand how to get around fully either.

Slowly, this is evaporating from me. But it's still evident.

I've started learning the language. I can read the alphabet. It's pretty easy. Actually, Korean is a little more advanced I think than Chinese and Japanese, especially when it comes to writing. I mean the alphabet has these constanants: ㄱ,ㄴ,ㄷ,ㄹ,ㅁ,ㅂ,ㅅ,ㅇ,ㅋ,ㅌ,ㅊ,ㅈ,ㅎ,ㅍ, and these vowels: ㅓ,ㅕ,ㅏ,ㅑ,ㅗ,ㅛ,ㅜ,ㅠ,ㅡ,ㅣ. So, I can write words like 영, 한, 서 울, 인천, 가삼함니 다, 우 유, 용현동, 동 인 천, 아이, 이, 미 국, 한 국 and a few others. So, it's getting better. It's just taking time.

Anyways, I would spend more time writing, but my time here at the PC 박 is almost up.

Peace.